God why...

Let's not even bother with the world as a whole, let's just zoom in to my tiny world and what's going on in it. God, why do you allow heartache and pain, sickness and suffering? Why do you allow healing only to bring allow sickness back in? Why do selfish people seem to prosper and people seeming to seek you struggle?God, why why why why why?

Do you have these questions for your tiny world as well? I mean the world at whole has a lot of issues. But, let's be real, you have your own tiny world, with your city, your state, your relatives. Maybe you have a friend in another country. It doesn't concern you much what is happening in that country but it does concern you what is happening to your friend.

We all have our own little worlds and we all have our GOD WHY? cries that we demand answers to. So what is God's reply? What is His answer? We can find that answer in the Bible when another man cries out 'WHY GOD?'. 

"Where were you when I created the earth? Tell me, since you know so much!" Job 38:4

I was praying today, asking God why he was letting this happen to this person, letting that happen to that person. I don't want to see my friends suffer. I don't want to see my family struggle. Then God reminded me of how I feel when I am correcting one of my boys and someone tries to tell me a better way. Not because it is a helpful better way, but because they think I am being too harsh in that moment. 

We are all God's children. Take that into consideration for a moment. I have three very different boys with very different needs that I am raising. My husband and I have to acknowledge that what works for one does not always work for another. According to Google the current world population is 7.7 billion, and that's just the people they are able to account for, what about people off the grid or on remote islands? 7.7 unique children to care for, instruct, and strengthen. Um, about my demands, about my 'Why God?' let's just lay that to the side.

God, you are holy and righteous. You alone are God. You created the Earth and everyone in it. You know what is best for your children. Help me not to question you from the pains of my heart but to give you those pains and trust that you are working for good in my life. Though something may hurt today, it may give me the strength that I need in the future. Before my loved ones were ever mine, they were yours. You love them more than I can even imagine. Help me to see the world as you see it, break my heart for what breaks yours, give me faith to trust You daily. Amen